running away

i just feel like blogging. just some random thoughts.u can skip it though (:
somehow,somewhere,i just feel like blogging suddenly.maybe i'll feel better typing it out? im not sure either.i hope this helps,though.well when i heard about that,i felt a tinge of disappointment to be true.but i know i cant do anything.so i just kept my mouth shut.u know smth? i think i got e technique,to smile on e outside,and cry on e inside.i want to cry,but my eyes are dry.i just cant seem to cry out.but maybe that's a good thing,i guess.crying to urself only when u're alone.i hope,i wish,i dream,i thought.but at e end of the day,i guess it's just purely my thoughts,my dream,not yours.so...am i stupid? or what? i felt stupid.thinking so much,wishing and hoping,dreaming of this and that.stupid,aint i? u hope to do this and that.but before u did it,u heard stuffs about this person who is gonna do this and that.and so,u failed ultimately.becuz before u can even put thoughts into action,u failed already.hello,why are u such a failure? well, do u dream of someone u frequently thought of? i did.i dreamt.but what's e point? making me happy only in my dream? ya in my face.becuz this will not happen anymore,right? so what's e point of me dreaming of all these? haa.stupid. what i thought was right,right? so why even bother to ask me not to think about it? why bother to ask me not to think so much? when u know that all these is gonna happen eventually. sometimes i just hope someone will be there,sitting beside me,listening to me talk without making a noise.provide me with tissues,and let me cry my hearts out,instead of asking me not to cry.and give me a big big hug,but please,dont let me go.