发光的简讯

right.2009 is coming to an end soon. i dont know how im feeling right now either. neutral i guess? [:
for some people, probably u're hoping for this day to come. for some, maybe u dont wish to ? well in 2009, i gained and i lost. i know, that's part and parcel of life. people always tells me this. cheer up this is part and parcel of life. uhhh, guess it helps a lil. cuz whenever im upset now, i'll tell myself it's part and parcel of life :X i hope this time when i look back, i'll leave no regrets. ehhh, it's hard, i know. based on my character, i know i'll just say and promise myself but when things happen, i'll just keep my bloody mouth shut. becuz whenever i wanna do something, there will be always! something that will stop me. either worried,guilt or whatever u can think of, i just wont do it. i hope 2010 will be a better year. i hope i'll smile more and tear no more. people live once in a lifetime. i'll only meet these people i've met once, not like i'll know if i'll meet them in my next life. i hope i'll learn how to treasure more. i hope i'll learn to do what i really want, and not feel guilty or whatever shit. i hope promises will come true. i hope ....
hmm. but still, i will miss my cutieeeeeee wagle schedule [ my organiser] . it has been with me for a yr and becuz i haven been writing diary, that has become part of my life. whenever im happy or sad, i'll write in it.draw a sad face or write a few words on that particular date. and now, i have to leave it behind, and bring a new baby out. well, good or bad i dont know. but this time, my new baby is as simple as a plain booklet. not like wagle. cuz i know if i buy those cute ones, i wont bring it out. LOl. cuz it's heavy and im scare to dirty it. gahh :X new baby, hope there are more smilies in u this time ((:  i dont wanna keep seeing sad faces. ): 
sh0o~

a brand new year. does that mean a brand new start too?